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Self-care reminder.

I’m learning that feeling exhausted with everything and wanting to take a break from the world are signs that something is wrong and I need to take better care of myself and make my boundaries more clear. Right now, that … Continue reading

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Take Care

When I went to Chicago last March, I got tattooed by Alana Robbie. In 2010, she tattooed a Greyhound bus on my left arm, and this time, she tattooed TAKE CARE on my knuckles. I’d written down hundreds of knuckle … Continue reading

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Recovery is a Series of (Potential) New Beginnings

Changes are happening! I’m moving in September. Each time I get ready to move, I daydream about my new routine, my new home, my new self. I imagine setting up my spaces just perfectly, waking up early in the morning, … Continue reading

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To be true to my own weirdnesses.

450 days sober. Celebrating by buying books on borderline personality disorder, and having a brief freak-out in a public place that resulted in me destroying private property. Anxiety & insanity are keeping me away from my friends right now and … Continue reading

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I feel like a mess, and what I really want to say is…

My life seems to exist in lists and snapshots right now, and I’ve lost track of how many times I’ve said, “I’m gonna get my shit together… Again… Soon.” I feel like through much of April, I was caught in … Continue reading

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I got stars in my beard and I feel real weird for you.

Sometimes I feel like I am neglecting my friendships when I just want to stay home and write. I don’t have internet access at home right now, and every now and then, I choose to turn off my cell phone … Continue reading

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Be Your Own Therapist

Today marks one month since I got out of Homewood, a local treatment centre. In some ways, it feels like I was just there yesterday, and in others, it feels like a year has passed. Time moves in strange ways … Continue reading

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The Kindness of Strangers, and the Search for a Potentially Healing Community

I have a tendency to think that the whole world and everyone in it is inherently good when I stumble upon one kind stranger, and to think the entire opposite when I stumble upon a particularly unpleasant stranger. I recently … Continue reading

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What’s Your Diagnonsense?

Borderline Personality Disorder, that’s what. Here’s what I knew about BPD before being diagnosed: – more women than men receive this diagnosis – many argue BPD does not actually exist – it’s often viewed as the last resort diagnosis; given … Continue reading

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Hospital Girl Has Left the Building

I am writing after having spent the last two months in a treatment centre for mental health. I did not have a crisis that led me there; well, I did, but it was a long time ago. I had been … Continue reading

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