Author Archives: marandaelizabeth

Alcohol, I don’t want to drink you anymore.

Alcohol! I feel like so many of my friends are currently struggling with cutting down their consumption of alcohol, either by drinking less, or by drinking none at all. This is something I’ve struggled with for years, and I want … Continue reading

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Ask first.

Friends and readers, I want you to know that I have a hard time saying no. I also have a hard time stating what I want or need, and making decisions (big decisions like whether or not to continue playing … Continue reading

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Mindful Communication and Consent (this is what I need)

I just got back from an excellent workshop on self-care and activism, and I really ought to be going to bed right now because I have to get up in the morning, but my mind is spinning, so I need … Continue reading

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Be Your Own Therapist

Today marks one month since I got out of Homewood, a local treatment centre. In some ways, it feels like I was just there yesterday, and in others, it feels like a year has passed. Time moves in strange ways … Continue reading

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The Kindness of Strangers, and the Search for a Potentially Healing Community

I have a tendency to think that the whole world and everyone in it is inherently good when I stumble upon one kind stranger, and to think the entire opposite when I stumble upon a particularly unpleasant stranger. I recently … Continue reading

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What’s Your Diagnonsense?

Borderline Personality Disorder, that’s what. Here’s what I knew about BPD before being diagnosed: – more women than men receive this diagnosis – many argue BPD does not actually exist – it’s often viewed as the last resort diagnosis; given … Continue reading

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Hospital Girl Has Left the Building

I am writing after having spent the last two months in a treatment centre for mental health. I did not have a crisis that led me there; well, I did, but it was a long time ago. I had been … Continue reading

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Struggling through feelings of isolation, and knowing that our voices are valued.

This morning, I listened to someone on the radio say that there are only a few great voices in each generation, and admitted that he is not one of them. I thought his statement was sad and discouraging. If there … Continue reading

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Making a home, imagining a home.

Lately I seem to have developed a mild obsession with cleaning and organizing my apartment. It started with vacuuming. When I moved into this apartment last summer, no one had bothered to clean it, so it was covered in the … Continue reading

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Taking control of my daily life, and attempting to eliminate the feeling that some unclarified thing is missing.

You know that feeling like something is missing, but you’re not sure what it is? I don’t know if there was ever a time when that feeling was not a part of my daily experience, but there are times when … Continue reading

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